About a year ago, I wrote an article about my eldest adult son who has bipolar disorder. Bless his heart, to this day he has done nothing to get help. Today, I found out my adult daughter too has bipolar disorder. Yes, me and two of my children all suffer with bipolar disorder.
What are the odds? I know the studies say it can be hereditary but really, all three of us!?! There must be a case study there!
I’m now dealing with an overwhelming feeling of guilt. My children didn’t have a terrible upbringing nor was it worthy of getting this diagnosis. So, if environmental factors are not the case it only leave heredity factors.
Is this my fault? Could I have prevented this? All answers point to ‘No!’
Regardless, I still feel bad that my children will suffer major mood swings and serious depressive lows for the rest of their lives! Not what a parent wants for their kids! As for my daughter, she’s taking her diagnosis pretty well! Since she pretty versed in my diagnosis, there are surprises in her eyes.
She has unfortunately had a history of mental health issues. At the age of 9, she had her first psych evaluation. This was due to her behavior in school. The evaluation didn’t diagnosis her with anything at the time, but did state she would need therapy for life.
She struggled in her youth to accept the divorce from her father and I. Mind you she was about 4-years old at the time. Her father has been a constant absence in her life. This didn’t help! She was later diagnosed with separation anxiety around the age if 10, due to the divorce.
As she grew older her separation anxiety diminished and her oddities grew stronger. She began seeing and hearing things not there. She was about 12 when this happened. But the therapists said it was a manifestation of the anxiety.
She was briefly on antidepressants and they only seemed to worsen her behavior.
Throughout her childhood she would behave oddly at school by hiding under desks for no reason. She began talking to toys as if they were alive, and wishing for vampires to come change her into one.
Needless to say, she is my most interesting child. It’s been a difficult road raising her but I wouldn’t change a thing! I love her dearly!However, it’s no surprise she was diagnosed with bipolar disorder. Still it stings, but she’s still my baby girl!
What now? Well, we have her 1st of many doctor appointments to get her help!
She’ll see her primary care physician to get a referral to the psychiatrist and then get on medication management. She doesn’t seem as nervous as I when I was first diagnosed, and I’m grateful! Together, we will walk this path together and I’ll support her and go to every one of her appointments.
She is a strong woman and is going to make it through prosperous. I’m very proud she has embraced this diagnosis and wants to be as mentally healthy as can be!
I will keep you up to date as to how she’s doing.