Suicide – Our Important Lives

WARNING – POSSIBLE TRIGGER

Suicide is an increasing public health concern. In 2009, the number of deaths from suicide surpassed the number of deaths from motor vehicle crashes in the United States.

Traditionally, suicide prevention efforts have been focused mostly on youths and older adults, but recent evidence suggests that there have been substantial increases in suicide rates among middle-aged adults in the United States.

To investigate trends in suicide rates among adults aged 35–64 years over the last decade, CDC analyzed National Vital Statistics System (NVSS) mortality data from 1999–2010.

Trends in suicide rates were examined by sex, age group, race/ethnicity, state and region of residence, and mechanism of suicide.

The results of this analysis indicated that the annual, age-adjusted suicide rate among persons aged 35–64 years increased 28.4%, from 13.7 per 100,000 population in 1999 to 17.6 in 2010.

The findings underscore the need for suicide preventive measures directed toward middle-aged populations.There are many who contemplate suicide, though few who are successful. The rate of men vs. women, are staggering!

Men often are more likely to succeed at commit suicide over women. Why? This is primarily due to men’s lack of getting help for things as detrimental as severe depression.

Women are more likely to seek help than men. There is also the factor that men do not want to face possible stigma. Whatever the case, it is crucial to seek help if suicidal!

My story of attempted suicide

When I was 15 I had broken-up with my boyfriend. This was a particularly difficult time for me. My vision was we were going to be together through high school, and marry when I turned 18.

I had bipolar disorder at 15, but undiagnosed. I hit a major depression. I stopped going to school for a while, didn’t socialize with friends, my school work fell through the cracks, and I began binge eating.

I even managed to sneak alcohol to help calm my nerves. I know I was to young, but I was so depressed I didn’t care. My mom worked evenings, and so I was alone from 10:00 pm until 7:30am when she got home from work.

My mother attributed my depression to simple teenage angst. She didn’t know I was sneaking liquor or that I was suicidal. When she left for work, I would cry and cry, and cry!

After about two weeks of this I would contemplate how I was going to die, I had enough of life, and felt I couldn’t go another painful day! When my mom left for work one night, I swallowed a bunch of Tylenol. A short time later I began vomiting.

Honestly, my memory is a bit foggy. I may have vomited on my own. Needless to say I was unsuccessful.

I wouldn’t give up though. A few days later I would cut my wrists. I began to realize what I was doing. I began to go into panic. I prayed to god to help me through this.

I didn’t cut myself bad enough to need stitches, and I was able to wrap my wrists and hide my cuts. Since it was winter time, I was able to wear long sleeve turtleneck shirts and avoid questions about my bandages. I didn’t tell my mom about what I did, until many years later. She cried, and I apologized.

I swore I would NEVER attempt suicide again!

And, I have kept my word! I have honestly contemplated it but would NEVER follow through! To this day, I still have small scars on my wrists. It’s my reminder that there is nothing so bad in life that suicide is the answer!

I’m taking antidepressants (when necessary), antipsychotics, and anticonvulsants. I go to therapy on a weekly basis, and have a case manager who is at my beck-and-call when I need her. My story isn’t unique, as many who have bipolar disorder (mental health issues) have a story to tell.

I’m fortune that the county I live in has a crisis center I can call 24/7. There is also the suicide prevention hotline (1-800-273-8255). I don’t want to leave out my caregiver, my husband! He has ALWAYS been my support rock! It is imperative to build resources to help get you through those difficult moments.

I’m sure wherever you live, that there is a crisis hotline. A simple search online should turn up a contact phone number. It is crucial to talk to someone, a friend, family member, therapist, psychiatrist, and/or someone you trust.

A few thing to think about to help you get through a tough moment:

  • Know that you can get through this
  • Ask for help immediately
  • Delay your plan
  • Think of all the people who love and care about you
  • Don’t feel guilty or ashamed for your thoughts
  • Think of all the things you have yet to do
  • Find a distraction
  • Talk to a doctor or a therapist
  • Make a gratitude list
  • Take care of yourself
  • Avoid your triggers
  • Avoid drugs or alcohol
  • Address the causes as much as you can

If you need help locating a crisis hotline, please comment, and I will do my best to assist!

YOU ARE NOT ALONE!

bipolarme

bipolarme

Living with type 1 bipolar disorder, PTSD (due to childhood trauma), Rapid Cycling, and Seasonal Affective Disorder. Writing about my life experiences.

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