“All aboard!” Please have your tickets ready for the conductor.
Yes, once again I have gotten aboard the depression train, headed straight into the belly of the beast!
None of us truly know what to expect or how low we will end-up. Though, my current mind-set is slowly but surely diminishing.
I don’t have an appointment with my psychiatrist for a couple of weeks. So the next few weeks should pose, interesting.
My mind has slowed down, my speech is stuttered, my energy is weaning, my smile is lost.
I’m feeling lower than the dumps. But not suicidal. Waking up and getting out of bed is surely becoming a chore!
I’m taking my medication as prescribed but it doesn’t seem to be helping my depression.
My dilemma is…”do I get back on antidepressants?” It’s tough, as it generally leads me into mania.
Though with careful monitoring I should be ok.
It’s a tough time, but I’m trying to look on the positive side of things. The sun is out, I have a wonderful supportive family, and two very happy dogs.
Believe it or not, I find the bright side more attractive to lean on as oppose to allowing myself to fall to far into depression.
We’ll see how this all rolls out over the next few weeks, but I’m banking on fighting this mood with all my might!
I’ve made one of my New Years resolutions to stay mentally healthy, and I’ll be damned if I lose this battle!