My mania seems to kick up around the same time every year. This particular summer was no different.
It was approaching that HOT time of July, and I started to itch! That mania itch. I started going out, hanging with friends. Something I don’t usually do as I’m sort of an introvert.
Started hanging with the wrong crowd. Before you know it, I’m having second thoughts about my marriage!
I was meeting my friends almost every Friday for karaoke at our local bar. I was having way to much fun alone, for a married person.
I started to feel single, as much as I was out! I started wanting to be single and live my life freely!
The more bad associations I had, the more encouragement I had to leave my husband.
Eventually, my mania caught up with me! I was spending money, out of the house, thought of only me, and was off for another tattoo!
I had made up my mind, I was going to do it. I headed to the courthouse to obtain the divorce papers. Got them, and filled them out.
The next day, I told my husband I wanted a divorce! He was heartbroken. 11 years together, and this!
We had separated, he moved out. I had gotten what I asked for. Right?
I was now living alone, with my kids and free as a bird! I continued going out, talking on the phone till all hours of the night, and texting too!
One day a few weeks in something happened. I had to talk, but to whom. Well, to the only person I trusted in the world..my husband.
It turned out for the best, he gave me sound advice and we also ended up talking things out. We eventually got back together.
I stopped talking to my so-called “friends,” and my husband and I took those divorce papers and burned them.
That was the last time I ever asked for a divorce!
One of the lessons I’ve learned having bipolar is NOT to make life changing decisions when your manic.
Today, my husband and I have a strong relationship, and have been together 13 years!
We’ve been through hell and back with this bipolar before and after diagnosis. But we remain committed to each other!
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