Feeling Lost


I sit here staring at a blank page, unsure what to write.  I’m feeling very discombobulated!  For the last few weeks I went into another episode of hypomania.

Today, I’m feeling manic and depressed.  It’s really hard to be confused in mixed states. I’m not sure if I should go shopping or crawl back into bed.

Having mixed states is draining on my mental and physical energy. I should be exercising right now, but don’t have the energy to do so.

I’ve recently been nominated for an  award, which is really cool! I never thought I would be recognized for my efforts in bipolar disorder/mental health awareness. It truly is an honor! Just being nominated has made my day! This has been my focus this week. I’m grateful for this outlet!

Sitting here still staring at this page, and I’m feeling down. Though, I should be overly excited for myself.  Tomorrow, I see my psychiatrist to talk about my hypomania, depression, and medication. I am hoping all will be better with me. I think I’m slowly headed into Seasonal Affective Disorder (S.A.D.), which isn’t so bad. Why?

Because I’ve got a plan!

I’m going to purchase a “therapy light” to help me get more vitamin D during the winter, that is vastly approaching.  I’m planning on continuing my exercise during the winter. At least 30 minute walks on my treadmill. I will stay positive as can be, take my medication as prescribed, and keep writing in my journal to help keep my mind less congested with thought.

Oh, can’t forget my regular therapy!

I’m feeling better already! I do find it helps to write down my thoughts and talk it over with myself!

If you or someone you know is going through the bouts of Seasonal Affective Disorder (S.A.D.), take a look at my previous post about S.A.D. I’ve given a through glance with tips on how to cope. HERE



Living with type 1 bipolar disorder, PTSD (due to childhood trauma), Rapid Cycling, and Seasonal Affective Disorder. Writing about my life experiences.

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