Bipolar Disorder: Newly Diagnosed

It was December 2011 when I was diagnosed with bipolar 1 disorder, PTSD (due to childhood trauma), severe anxiety, and S.A.D (seasonal affective disorder). This was a HUGE pill to swallow!

Frankly, I didn’t know what it meant. Was I crazy, insane or what? I just understood my demeanor and actions prior were not normal. So where was I to go with this? What could I do about it?

My psychiatrist prescribed me lithium and an anxiety pill to help me manage my mania (which I had been in for the last 6-months). He referred me to a therapist and handed me a few printouts on bipolar disorder. He also recommend I do an internet search on the topic, and go to my local library to educate myself.

I was lost! My head was spinning! I had been given a direction but still felt I was swimming in the deep end! I’m sure many alike have felt similar.

Up to this point I was living a bit out of control. As I mentioned, I’d been living in mania for at least 6-months. I had damn near broken-up my marriage, spent a lot of money (in which I don’t remember where or what I spent it on), lost a ridiculous amount of weight, was drinking alot, spent time at the local bar, got tattooed, etc.

So you can imagine, one day I woke-up and didn’t remember what totally happened in the last matter of months! It took my husband to piece it all together for me. It was hard to listen to all my crazy stunts. At this point I was coming out of mania.

My husband had been online trying to figure out why I was doing all these crazy things. He stumbled on bipolar disorder. Long story short, that’s how I ended up in a psychiatrist office.

By the way, my lack of memory is due to the bipolar disorder, per my psychiatrist.

Looking back on my diagnosis, I had a difficult time trying to learn more about bipolar disorder. It was like finding a needle in a haystack. There was some information here, some there but no one spot gave me what I was looking for.

I was also looking to talk to others with this diagnosis and kindle friendships. As much as I love my husband and appreciate my therapist, neither know what it’s like. I felt so alone.

I started a new twitter account in hopes to find others alike. I did but most I talked to were in my boat and looking for the same as I, not looking to offer support or advice. I started looking

for other chat sites on the matter, and found Tapatalk. They had a nice site full of people but there were so many, my questions often went unanswered.

I decided to start a website ( I did hours upon hours of research and here we are. I also created an app for Windows Phone and for the Windows PC community.




This website and app are ad-free, and offers all things related to bipolar disorder. You’ll find a Medication Center, FAQ Center, Video Center, Nutrition Center, Learning Center, Tool Center, Gift Center, and of course, BipolarMe Articles.

What does this mean for you? It means a beautiful new design meant to help you find what you need easier, faster load times, a better commenting system, and great new features without a constant stream of ads. It means compelling articles, answers to questions, access to information that makes sense(no doctor lingo), delicious recipes, great videos, tools for tough days, tools for everyday living, and a place to meet and interact with someone like yourself…a place to call home.


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Starting my own website was easier to obtain useful information, and a great way to help others. Not only to find information but to help others not feel alone, as I and so many others do!

Over the last four years, there have been many websites that have popped-up with more information on bipolar disorder. Helpful information. Though, there is still a lack of chat sites to connect with others. My hope is that changes in the future.

There needs to be more conversation regarding mental health. More services, and availability to get help regardless of age.

Regardless, I always tell those I speak with online “if you need to talk, please feel free to DM me on twitter anytime!” @bipolarme_net

I extend this to all of you!

Of recent, I have found a number of good people to talk to online. It’s taken some time, but nonetheless, there are many people out there to talk to who are more than willing to support and help others!

Don’t give up hope! You are NOT alone!


This is my story. Please feel free to share yours in the comments!




Living with type 1 bipolar disorder, PTSD (due to childhood trauma), Rapid Cycling, and Seasonal Affective Disorder. Writing about my life experiences.

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