A Bipolar Catatonic

One uncommon symptom of bipolar disorder discussed is attention span. Personally, I suffer from this greatly!
At times it would seem I’m ignoring someone, though I’m really just lost in thought.

I seem to on occasion experience a form of being catatonic. My family can waive their hands in front of me, and I honestly don’t see it.

The levels of my spacing out is surreal!

I’ve always wondered if I had a form of ADD/ADHD. Though my psychiatrist tells me it’s just a symptom of bipolar disorder.

I’m currently taking: Abilify, Tegretol, Effexor, and Zyprexa.

Although these medications help, I still have difficulty dealing with this lack of attention issue.

I try (per my therapist) to focus on said conversation, as to try to train my brain to stay with the program.

I can honestly say, this is a challenge!

As I mentioned this symptom comes and goes. I’ve noticed it more of an issue when I’m manic.

As with mania your thoughts are fast and rampant. I easily lose my ability to hear when I’m spoken too, or hear when my name is called.

I try to keep track of issues like this in my mood journal. This helps me to see what areas I’m falling short, and need attending too.

My journal also helps me become more self-aware. This too is a challenge but I do try my hardest to circumvent my shortcomings.

Does anyone else experience attention issues? Am I alone?

How do you handle it? Please share your story!

Bipolar Catatonic

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Living with type 1 bipolar disorder, PTSD (due to childhood trauma), Rapid Cycling, and Seasonal Affective Disorder. Writing about my life experiences.

5 thoughts on “A Bipolar Catatonic

  • May 12, 2015 at 9:07 am
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    My attention issues are “legendary.” I especially have a hard time focusing if the topics or activity doesn’t completely captivate me. Even then I will grow distracted. One task can take me hours to do because I can get absorbed in my thoughts or become distracted by other things.

    Something I do to balance? I plan ahead. I also keep a notebook on me at all times. With reminders. Ideas. I tell my friends “give me on second to write this out and I’ll be right with you.” Communication, careful planning, and management is key for me.

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  • May 12, 2015 at 12:02 pm
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    Yes I completely understand where you’re coming from. I never really thought of it as a symptom until I read your post but this explains a lot about my spaceyness! Do you ever have serious trouble watching tv or reading? I can hardly do either anymore or follow conversations.

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    • thebipolarmaniac
      May 18, 2015 at 9:17 am
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      In fact I struggle so much to pay attention while watching tv. I’ve actually cut-off our DirecTv. There was just no point to pay
      each month for something I no longer can really enjoy.
      As for reading, I find it drastically hard to read a book cover-to-cover.
      And following some conversations is hard for me, especially if the person I’m trying to focus on is a high energy personality! I usually excuse
      myself from a conversation if I recognize I just can’t do it!

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  • May 17, 2015 at 9:00 am
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    Thank you!
    My bipolar husband often checks out of gives me the brush off. The brush off its really bad when I am trying to talk to him about an important matter.
    I’ve recently started asking him if he is hearing me when I’ve felt the brush off. This seems to get his attention and get him to focus. Saved us from a few fights. Thanks for the confirmation that I am not crazy, yet! 🙂

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    • thebipolarmaniac
      May 18, 2015 at 9:13 am
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      No, your certainly not crazy! My attention level is profoundly absent! I believe the technical term is called: Disassociation.
      Its really hard for me at times to focus on even important discussions. My poor husband has gotten use to when is a good time to discuss
      important matters and when to just let thing slide, due to me spacing out.

      It definitely takes a lot of patience, but know we don’t do it on purpose. It really is out of our control at times.

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